I never like admitting that I’m afraid of anything.
Today, however, if anybody is reading this, I’m admitting that I’m afraid .
As you know, if you’ve been keeping up with SITC, my school club, the CFIS Philanthropic Society is sponsoring a 5K Walk to raise money to help a family with a baby struggling with leukemia.
My partner, one of my students’ mother, has been helping me organize it, and we have been spending a lot of time getting all the pieces to fall into place to make this event happen.
So many local businesses have stepped up to donate supplies, services, and products for us to use in the event.
We have spread the word about this Walk on the radio, in the newspaper, on the Internet, on Facebook, via emails, etc.
And still I’m afraid.
I’m afraid that we won’t have any money to give to the family or the Leukemia Society.
We have so many people donating their time, products, and services, but as of today, 8 days away from the event, I have a total of $45 donated.
I have never vocalized this fear. I believe that when I vocalize my fear, it has a greater chance of coming true. I know that’s weird, but I’m not taking any chances. I’m only mentioning it in this post, because it kind of doesn’t count if it’s written down and not spoken. I know that doesn’t make any sense either, but I have to tell someone.
One of my students, in his innocent, yet blunt way, asked me, “What if nobody shows up?”
I smile and tell him that we’re going to have so many people showing up on the day of the event, that our biggest problem will be trying to fit them all in the school’s athletic field.
Inside, however, I’m asking myself the same question over and over and over again.
And I’m afraid.
My dream was, and still is, to be able to have one of those big cardboard checks to give to Gage’s family with the number, “$1000″ written on it.
In the beginning I thought it was completely possible.
Now…well…. I’m afraid.
So here I am asking my readers if they can help me stop being afraid.
I’ve added a donate button to the side of my blog. This goes directly to my personal Paypal account, so you’re going to have to trust me, but if you can, I would appreciate if you would click on that button and make a donation. Any amount – $5, $10, $50? Any amount is appreciated. Paypal takes a small percentage, but every penny of the rest will go toward helping Gage’s family.
I’ve never asked for money like this before, but I need your help.
I’m hoping that all my fears are a waste of my time and energy, and we’ll have so many people show up on that day that we won’t be able to fit them all on the field.
Wouldn’t that be cool?
If you donate, please make sure you include your name and website, so I can mention you on my site.